Becoming self-absorbed

Embodying the Godself for dummies

If you’re waiting to feel inspired or scrambling to come up with ideas to make art, you’re doing things backwards—like trying to squeeze juice from an orange seed. If you want to incubate great ideas, you have to foster a healthy ecosystem.

You need to become the site of inspiration.

Honoring your subjectivity

As a creator, your perspective is your product. Your art is the fermentation of your life and the way you see the world. Like a delicious kombucha composed of all your experiences and the emotional responses they produce. Yummy!

But our current capitalist, colonialist frameworks have primed us to be perfect cogs in the proverbial machine. We’re basically raised to navigate life like NPCs—consuming and interpreting the world according to a scheme of “correctness” and farting out predetermined answers to preselected questions.

I mean, think about it: even interpreting classic works of literature, an inherently personal pursuit, came with correct and incorrect answers in school!

We’ve never been encouraged to see things through our own unique lenses, to embrace our own Genius. Our subjectivity was quickly trained out of us in favor of more marketable, manageable skills.

So it’s no wonder that you feel like a ghost wandering this mortal coil, waiting for eventual release and praying for prophesied excitement and ecstasy to crash down on your precious, little spectral head.

It’s no wonder you think you’re supposed to have ideas before you can make art.

You’ve forgotten that your life is art.

Absorbing into your inner world

I’m a big fan of art documentaries, but there’s one which I consider to be tantamount to a religious text, and that’s David Lynch: The Art Life. If you don’t know much about Lynch outside his work, he’s a real kook—and I say that in utter reverence.

The man spends all his time sequestered in his studio making art or pondering it. He’s so comfortable in his inner world, you virtually can’t drag him out of there. Not even for a rare interview. And as a result, he’s got some keenly honed instincts that he won’t betray even for the purposes of making sense to general audiences—much less penny pinching producers hand waiving about “the market”.

Because that’s the thing I find personally fascinating about Lynch—which also might get me cancelled by a fair few of his fans—he doesn’t care much for technical perfection. When I dig into the second season of Twin Peaks or some of his more self-indulgent works like Inland Empire, I have to admit that…they’re not really “good” in a classical sense. They violate just about all the laws of narrative and filmmaking to produce something singularly original and sometimes wholly confounding.

And yet, despite these ostensible “failures”, I always walk away from his works feeling deeply inspired—more grateful for the glimpse into Lynch’s psyche even when I’m not sure I “understand” what I see.

Lynch is an auteur in every sense of the word. He’s not concerned with whether you “get it.” He’s concerned with being fully expressed, with having his visions fully actualized. And as a result, his works have more of an impact than any of the paint-by-numbers blockbusters you’ll catch in cinemas today.

If you can give up on the project of making “good art”, you just might make something great

If you’re going to create an ecosystem where great ideas spring up like weeds, if you’re going to feel passionate and motivated by your own art again, I need you to adjust your priorities.

I need you to care more about being actualized than being loved.

I need you to feel so immersed and enamored by your own Self that creating dynamic, energetically charged work becomes an inevitability.

What makes Lynch’s work truly great is that he isn’t thinking about the audience. He isn’t trying to manipulate people into liking him or thinking him a “great artist.” He’s trying to please himself. He’s trying to be of service to his own Genius and the energies that want to move through him.

He is completely devoted to The Work.

That devotion flows directly from his ability to be present with himself. He stays consistently engaged with his creative practice by being utterly fascinated with the entire act of self-actualization. And he shows up daily to do that by being completely unafraid of The Void.

All artists fear the empty space as much as they crave it. They want to destroy that emptiness by building something there. But in order to build, they have to be.

In order to fill the Void, they have to surrender to the Void.

Filling the void with your Genius

In the Void, there’s just you. And a whole lot of silence. And boredom. Excruciating boredom. The only thing you have to turn to is what you bring with you—what is always with you. And that’s your imaginative worldview. The story you tell about your life and your Self. Your inner mythology.

Your current narrative might be a little, well, generic at the moment. You might be taking yourself a bit too literally.

But what if we returned to the primal, animate worldview inhabited by our ancestors?

What if you reinterpreted your own story through the lens of magick and myth?

Who would you become if you neglected the raw facts of your reality in favor of a more emotionally resonant, figurative perspective?

That version of you is what I call the Godself—an archetype of Self composed of the most creatively efficacious, emotionally charged, infinitely interesting parts of you. Those traits, experiences, images, and symbols are not only just as real as any societally determined role or identity that’s been foisted on you, they’re channeled directly from the interdimensional aspect of Self that exists across timelines (also known as your Genius). And as we’ve discussed many times before, Genius doesn’t always “make sense”—they don’t communicate in a literal, logical, linear fashion. So you’ll be powerless to express or embody them if you’re getting stuck in the most objective, rational view of your reality.

The Godself is a manifestation of your inner world, an emanation of your subjective perspective. The more deeply you absorb into that perspective, viewing the outer world through this magickal lens, the more creatively expressed you will be because your life will become art.

You will come to realize what the Dada movement recognized in the aftermath of the invention of the camera—that art is discovered, not made.

Duchamp’s toilet and YOU

In 1917, Dadaist Marcel Duchamp took a urinal, tilted it slightly, named and signed it, and put it on display as a “readymade” art piece—thus revolutionizing the art world forever.

Duchamp asserted that an object becomes art at the very moment an artist relates to it.

Duchamp declared that art is in the eye of the beholder, coming into being in the instant we choose to see it through the lens of our subjectivity.

Whether you’re photographing a cool tree or pulling a urinal out of the wall, you’re making art every time you interact with the world around you. You don’t need to “do” anything or “make” anything in order to create art. You create art as a natural consequence of being a fully conscious and sentient being.

You are constantly reading meaning into everything that stirs your senses—shaping the world with your subjectivity. Not everyone will see the same shapes you glimpse in a passing cloud. Your friend won’t remember your dad faceplanting into a pile of leaves outside the kitchen window when they smell an apple pie. Your partner won’t feel a deep sense of melancholy when passing fresh honeysuckle because they didn’t move across country, leaving all their friends behind, passing by big bunches of it lining the streets of their new neighborhood on the walk home from middle school every day.

This is why getting sucked into objectivity is so pernicious—you lose contact with that artistic way of living.

You lose contact with your creativity.

Coming home to your Self

When you return to the perspective of your Godself, nothing feels so ordinary anymore.

You’re not a long-haul trucker gobbling up podcasts on cold night drives, you’re a space traveler listening intently to interdimensional radio transmissions, eager to discover new signs of life.

You’re not a recent divorcée enrolling in trade school, you’re a knight-turned-mercenary, exiled from the Queen’s service, on a mission to seek your fortune.

You’re not a college dropout seeing a therapist to process intergenerational trauma, you’re a prophet possessed of a dark ancestral spirit—an ancient oracular gift that each member of your bloodline failed to tame—recently committed to a far-off druidic order helping you bring this spirit under your control.

When you begin to see the world through the stories you tell yourself, a tree is no longer simply a tree, a bridge is not just a bridge. Your entire life is an adventure waiting for you to discover it.

Because you’re the only one who can.

If you enjoyed my series on summoning the Godself, you can now grab your own copy to create yourself again and again! After all, embodying the Godself isn’t a one-and-done process—it’s a lifelong commitment to your own evolution.

Book a creativity coaching session with me

If you’re itching to dig deeper into my work, you can schedule one of the coaching sessions outlined here or sign up for a free 30 min consultation to discuss coaching packages or how we can best work together.

Godself Guidance, 60 mins

This call is for folks who want a little help channeling and embodying the Godself. We’ll talk a little bit about your current relationship with the Godself and then we’ll enter the Void to access your solar light. We’ll talk to any inner parts that might be eclipsing their influence, collect any guidance on offer, and merge with the Godself in order to re-establish connection.

Create your Apprenticeship, 90 mins

If you're looking to begin a more structured creative practice that includes service to spirit and your Genius, this is the call for you!

If you haven't already or are looking for additional guidance, I'll talk you through the hypersigil making process as the backbone of your apprenticeship. Then, we'll discuss how the planets would like to guide and mentor you in the work you do with your creative channel as well as how you can use astrology to get more in tune with your natural rhythms and cycles.

Elemental Alignment, 60 mins

This is for folks with an established creative practice/apprenticeship who would like to bring more balance to their efforts and energies or address a specific block you're experiencing. We'll use an elemental approach to evaluate the 4 major domains of your creative practice:

• EARTH - somatic, environmental

• WATER - emotional, imaginal, intraself, relational

• AIR - cognitive/intellectual, critical/analytical, organizational

• FIRE - intuitive, energetic, visionary

We'll also look at your birth chart to get an idea of where your strengths and areas of opportunity lie.